Absolving Responsibility...

Yep, Guilty, Look over here.. I absolve myself of responsibilty in lots of ways,  I blame the weather, my lack of will power, lack of energy, too higher body fat, lack of time, other people, my house not having enough storage.. the list goes on. I think we are all guilty of this to some degree. For me the time hascome to stop passing the buck and get on with living the life I want, starting with the house that doesnt have enough storage.. mmm is that really the problem OR is it that there's just too much crap in it???  I dare say if I wanted to be really honest about it (and really who does want to be honest about these things?) I live in a house with adequate storage and WAY TOO Much crap.. and I use that as an excuse for not really cleaning .. you know the old clean in between the crap thing.  Weelll having just read The Hero's Handbook,  I am going to under take being my own hero by throwing out a whole heap of shite that is literally gathering dust around here...unfortunately its going to have to wait until tomorrow (haahhaa procrastinators unite) as I have to be at work in 39 mins.. but I will chuck that bag of clothes thats been sitting in the bedroom in the car and take it to the sallies.

Its a start

Get your own copy ofThe Hero's Handbook ..its free and it might needle you into doing something about that thing thats been bothering you for a while :-)

No Comp for this Kid...

I've been back on he plan for a month no and not too much has changed.. although having said that I do feel a whole heap better.

The new programme is starting to show benefits..i think my shoulders are squaring off and my lats have definately gotten bigger.

All that said however it doesnt look like I'm gonna be competing in april as the weight loss is not coming away all that great and also it looks like we are Australia-bound WOOHOO!! So with the need for renewing passports and transporting hounds (as well as ourselves) spending a shed load of cash right now on new bikinis, tans, federation/entry fees, shoes, hair ... the list goes on, just doesnt seem like a feasable idea.. and if im going to be honest my heads not really into it right now.. sometimes I just wanna eat eggs on toast and drink wine (not at the same time usually tho...) and its really nice to have the choice to do so.  Well you always have a choice even when on a cutting diet BUT you really have to weight up the consequences of your dietary recklessness very carefully.  So right now I know that I will compete again this year so am sticking to the plan 90% of the time, keeping up my training and generally doing the right things.

Today is my "cheat" day so I have eaten some cheese busters (yum!) and am planning wine for later. Also I found a very low fat, low carb, high protein cheesecake recipe so am trying that out today .. its cooling in the oven even as I type.  will post photos when its done.

Back to the plan..

Finally got my balls outta my purse as it were and got back on the plan. Cos the fact is as much as I moan and whinge about the lack of cake and booze, cake and booze make me feel like crap, so stop bitching and suffer OR take action and feel better, nobody wants to listen to someone who goes on and on about how fat, sick, tired, lethargic etc, etc they are when they know damn well how to help themselves. So just get on and do it.

Saturday.. better!

Woke up way too early this morning.. bit seedy due to the bottle of wine I inhaled.. luckily the pub was closed when I got there, rottweiler in tow.

Today was better although I went back to bed and read for a while, made myself some breakfast (which I had in bed oooh the luxury!) and then went back to sleep till half past ten, very nice :0)

Went for a five k walk and now I have my nike sportsband calibrated i can tell you that I walk at a pce of between 6.6 and 7.3ks an hour, Phew! Its no wonder walking with other people seems painfully slow sometimes, So there went 300 cals (not quite the wine and bread but better than nothing)

Still undecided about the whole stage thing BUT am definate about the job. Better go check tea. Steak w Eggplant and vegetable chutney stack .. thanks NZ house and garden mag!

good bye wagon and job resignations

I just drank a whole bottle of red wine (and Im gonna go buy more!) and ate a mass of bread and quit my job.. cut me some slack. Ok so I dont see the stage any time soon but sometimes you've just got to get your day to day shit in order.
Sometimes fat mass and weight readings are just not important.. a lot like my spelling lol.

Sometimes you just have to get your shit together and get happy./. fuck the calipers

97 Days to go

And motivation wavers already .. although I had decided to do this last year .. that was so, well, last year! I didnt write last night because in lieu of work stress I decided to have a bourbon, a beer and a wine (very large) and well they say alchohol is not the way to solve problems it sure helped me relax, which was a good thing. The bad thing about it was that it lead to before bed corned beef sandwichs and a 300g weight gain...hmmmm

Today was an "off" day so no gym today, so spent the afternoon painting and for lunch I invented a tasty salad.

Ingredients:

100g of very lean good quality bacon
1/4 of a small avocado
100g potato (left overs from last nights dinner)
1 small carrot
1/2 c cucumber sliced or diced
1/2 c green beans sliced
sprinkle of whole kernal corn
mint sauce.

cook the beans and corn and then grate in the carrot and add to beans and corn. Cook the bacon in the microwave on paper towels.  Chop avocado and potaoto and add to salad. when the bacon is cooked chop it up and add it to the salad as well.  Sprinkle mint sauce over the top and eat.

It sound disgusting but its actually very tasty.

venison patties for tea with silverbeet, mushrooms and grated beetroot.

strenght

Ok back to the gym today after two days of no exercise (except that involving my arms!) and my strenght was back, thank god, as last week my first week back after my holiday break I felt so weak and couldnt manage the weights or reps i had been doing previously, so game on and back to normal, Yahoo!  My new program which I have been waiting for with baited breath has still not shown up, so I just did a hybrid back and abs workout cobbled together from my old program.. it went well and felt good.  I am focusing on lifting heavier for less reps and cutting back the sets in a majority of the exercises so I dont get too knackered too quickly.
Had a good cardio session this morning before work, nice 39min walk, nothing too hard out as i have a lovely crop of mossie bites and didnt want them to go feral on me too early in the day.. nothing worse than being itchy and scratchy.
Foods good too,  nothing "bad" has crossed my lips today but after the last three weeks hmm well you know. Chilli tuna bake for tea tonight mmmm
99 days to go

New Year, New Start... and the ghost of christmas booze..

Oh heck, 9 days into the new year and I dont make resolutions as such.. but this year I am going to be a little less frenetic and focus on things that I need and want to do rather than taking on every job or project under the sun and generally burning myself out.

I've had a fantastic break from work, training and am relaxed and just had a fantastic weekend of sun, wine and tasty breakfasts with some absolutely wonderful friends.  Its been great, thanks guys :0).  But as they say you can have to much of a good thing and in this case its been three weeks of eating, relaxing and drinking way too much lol,  but it tastes so good!!  Unfortunately no I have to deal with the physical fall out (damn where did I put that jar of self control...?) The next competition is on april 30 and I have some serious work to do.. and to that end I'm going to blog every day of the journey (well when Im home anyway) and hopefully that will help to keep me on track.

100 days to go...